Thank's Ash

I just wake up, and found my self lying between my beloved daughters. I just sit for awhile, try to remember what was happened. All I know is, I had a dream... dream about me talking to my self. You wrote some notes in my dimension, to tell me what should I do, to heal me from this pain, to acknowledge me with many experience of life. Now you're gone forever, right at the last time I saw you in the difference character.


I know, I must continuing my journey... I should not running away... I should not giving up... even if my heart was breaking apart into dust so let be it. But there was a time that everything must end, every single damn thing whether it good or bad.

I choose hatred, I choose emptiness, I choose different way. I don't want to be like you, forsaken forever until the end of your life although you have happy ending at last. I realize it will be hard to get rid off some matters but this is my choice, leave all behind with no regret.

Sorry if I can't be like you wanna be, time is running out, it can never wait even just for 1 second. Too many people is hurt because of me, too many soul was damned because I got in to their life. Every time I see my face in the mirror, I always asking the same question "What have you done to me..."

Tonight I close my eyes, I close my heart, I close my kindness, I close my generosity. Tomorrow they will find me as a jerk, tomorrow the will find me as an asshole, I don't care and I don't even gave a damn about their thinking. I wanna break this bound, forever.

Thank you Ash, thank you for solving my problem. now I have to face it with heartless, now I'm not owe anything to anybody. Too bad you have to leave me forever, you are my favorite mask I ever had. So cool, so confident in every situation... you are the best and always be the best.

Gee